Day Seven

Today was day seven. Seven days in a hospital bed. Seven days of fighting infection. Seven days of prayer. Seven days of "why".

We have survived seven days of chaos and ups and downs. Somehow we are still standing. This infection has brought a mom and dad from the brink and back a couple of times. We have had moments of fear that we are going to lose our child and even a moment where we almost did. Worries that when our child wakes up, will he be the same? We have both been run down and sick. Cried buckets of tears with each other and in silence. We have made decisions that would dictate our child's survival and outcome. All of this in seven days.

What the next seven days will hold is now up to Logan and God. We have given control to Logan, God, and the miracle caregivers at his bedside. Right now his body may be weak but his will is strong. Despite heavy doses of sedation, he continues to remind us that he is here and fighting hard. Progress has been slow but setbacks have been small. The next seven days are a mystery but we will be here cheering him on.

So now after that touchy-feely writing I move to the explanation of today. Logan spiked a fever last night. It has waxed and waned all day. This has not alarmed the staff as we do have a source but it made the intensivist obtain a fungal culture from down his endotracheal tube just to be sure. Results on that will not be back for a few days. In the meantime he remains on antibiotics to cover him in case of onset of a bacterial infection.

His ventilator has been changed over from volume support to pressure support. This decreases the risk of damage to the lungs from the ventilator but is also a sign that Logan is needing a little extra help. His lungs are not as compliant as the doctors would like and his X-rays just aren't clearing as expected. His lungs sound good but this is deceiving. My child's lungs at baseline sound coarse and yucky. The junk in his airways is thick and just doesn't want to move out. Seriously, Logan's lungs really don't need to become a homeless shelter for germs.

He is still receiving a lot of medications to support him. The staff is watching him like a hawk. We are not out of the woods and most likely the breathing tube will remain in place for a couple of days at least. Thank you for the outpouring of support we have received. I wish I could take every person up on their offers for help. Please continue to offer because we never know what we will need from day to day. I hope that does not sound selfish but I think this is one of those times to ask. I am learning to accept help and realizing how great it feels to accept. I don't think I will ever be able to repay the kindness but know that my angel son has a way of doing it for me. Goodnight everyone.